I have never enjoyed sex, I always thought that it is not for me, and I always blamed my partners for being too insensitive, I blamed the dryness, the stress, and my character, I used to tell myself that I was not sexual and that I'd better give up. One day, when the partner who was worth trying hard for arrived (that was before I realized that it is worth trying for myself first) I turned to my gynaecologist and told him that I was experiencing pain and a burning sensation during penetration. He examined me carefully and said that he cannot observe any physical problem and referred me to a gynaecologist and sexologist, a specialist in vulvar and vaginal pain.
I will not elaborate on all the treatment stages, but I can say that from here started a painful, sad and exhausting saga including too many doctors, examinations, ointments, rubbing, and mainly sadness for not being able to have sex with my husband, just as the rest of the women in the world do without crying, or stop, or feel pain. How come everyone else enjoys sex, wants sex and has sex while I am the only one who is rejecting and avoiding it, being misunderstood and different?.
The last gynaecologist gave me an ointment that relieved the pain, but I already felt so far from my body and from the willingness to touch and to be touched, that I expelled sex completely from my life.
One day, after another difficult conversation with my husband about the situation, I told a friend about it. She said that she saw recommendations about a Chinese medicine therapist who specializes in gynaecological diseases. I told her that I am done with therapists and doctors and there is no chance I will go through another exhausting saga about the sex I am not having.
Eventually, I decided to give it one last chance.
That is how I met Orit, the Chinese medicine therapist who has changed my life. Orit exposed me to the Chinese medicine world, step by step, gently but insistently, she exposed me to the close relationship between my body and my mental state. For the first time, I wasn’t asked to say what I have but what I feel.
Orit treated me professionally with care, and slowly I could feel my body again. By combining diet changes, yoga, conversations and acupuncture, of course, my body got back its libido, motivation, and connection. I stopped crying and became fulfilled with faith getting back my body, intimacy and contact. Orit is not only an acupuncturist but also an expert on women's body, she gave me hope where gynaecology has failed. Thanks to her I am back to being the woman I am today who can feel, enjoy and love.
My recommendation to each woman is not to give up, to give it a chance and go on a journey where she can realize how smart her body is, how it is attached to her soul, and how much comfort and help can one wonderful and experienced therapist give. I have gained.